New Lair~~

I can't believe I needed 2 days to tidy up and reorganize my room! Yesterday, I started cleaning in the afternoon, I had fixed table legs to my legless table top and it actually took up my whole afternoon until evening.. Then, I went and watch drama and continue at 8 something at night and I realised that I can't finish tidying my room and left it for today..

Today, I continued the tidying and reorganizing process.. It took me until just now, which was 11 something at the night to finish tidying, reorganizing and cleaning up!! And I had to bath at 12 something midnight.. TT__________TT

I bath at this late as well yesterday night and today is the second time! Gosh! I might suffer early osteoporosis!! ><''

However, my room is in new condition right now but I'm still not satisfied.. I had to throw away all the 'folios' that I had done in my secondary school, they are all my blood, tears and sweat.. *sobs* and all my tuition homework and notes that I had done.. ALL throw away!!

Imagine that I had throw so many things away, but my room is still flooded with stuffs!! Argh!! It's still messy.. Perhaps, I need to throw away everything???

I think with my 'treasures', it will be a SUPER DUPER BIG PROBLEM if I am going to shift my house next time!! 'Mampus-lah'~~

Rotten Mushroom~ xD

It's been so long I disappear from my blog!! poor thing!! *pats*

Now that I am back and I am about to bring to you a news~ I had decided to be motivated and make full use of myself~ ><>> jeannie-art-and-design-studio.tumblr.com

This blog is going to be contented with my 'materpieces'~~ which included photos taken and edited by me, drawings, rendered models/drawings, etc. etc. anything that I call them my 'artwork'.. Muahaha!!

Please do look forward to it ya!!! =)

Masterpiece II - My Hi-Fi

Fuu~~ this is my Hi-fi after working on it for nearly 2 months (I think, lost track of time consumed)

Taadaa!!!

It's made of Acrylic (a kind of plastic) and well, being puttied to close the gaps (which means putty-ing and sanding >> this kills)..

Sprayed with flat black and graphics are from stickers (sorry! not enough time)

I didn't manage to take the photos of each process like what I did last time due to my handphone failures of loading the camera and also I was chasing dateline and couldn't waste my time to take pictures!

Anyway, there are a few processes that I manage to capture:

> this is after the Acrylic being puttied and sprayed with Premier Surfacer Grey.

> this is after being sprayed with flat black and the speakers being fixed.

> this is after everything is done!

Love Letter~

Dear Assignments and Projects,

I love both of you guys so much for adding 'colours' to my dull life! Now, I'm so freaking 'happy' to deal with both of you everyday.. Which means, college every weekdays > travel by bus every weekdays > might have possibility to meet a cute pervert(s) every weekdays.. Guys, really, thank you so much!

I don't have much time to blog thanks to both of my loves. Will update my blog with my masterpieces during my August-September holiday! See you, my dear blog! I will miss you! Muacks!

With shoooos and fear from,

Jeannie Lim

Exhausted~~

I had been sleeping at 2am for a few days.. I know the other college friends of mine are sleeping later than me but I really can't take that little sleep.. For me, 8 hours of sleep is not enough.. I need 10 hours.. So not to mention to sleep at 2am and wake up at 7am.. 5 hours of sleep? Zombie for me~

Furthermore, not to mention the-not-enough-sleep.. I have to sand my model which is exhausting!! It used up a lot of energy.. And it took me so long to even get it to be symmetrical!! And, after working for so long, it is still not exactly symmetrical!! I'm so dead.. We had long passed our deadline.. Lecturer is being kind to let us to continue.. TT.TT *touched*

And now, Malaysian Studies' test is on tomorrow and I haven't study anything.. I'm so dead.. And pathetic.. *Sigh*>< & *Sobs*TT.TT

Grrr.. I need to quickly end my post and start studying.. Bye~

放飞机~

今天被人家放飞机..

原本可以四点回，然后五点前就可以到家的，却因为等某人的电话而等到下大雨，直到六点才回家..

而且还是从他朋友的口中得知原来他已经到家了，那时候的我感觉好渺小.. 好渺小..

如果不能跟人家一起回就应该说好来... 害人家在那儿瞎等..

我居然被自己心爱和相信的人放飞机.. 感觉好失望，好失落..

原来世界上没有一个人的话是可以完全相信的..

Masterpiece I - My MP3

Remember the MP3 in my last post? After a lot of hardworks: uncountable times of sanding and putty-ing.. Finally its done!! Tada!!

Here's the process of my hard work..

5. Water-sand > spray grey > spray black > do graphic > spray clear spray (Gosh!! this was like the freaking last step and I did mistake!! The F***ing clear spray did not dry and it stains!!)

6. After banging my head for solutions.. I water-sand away the clear spray layer > tear off the graphics > put putty > water-sand again.. This is how it looks like after I reconstruct it:

7. Spray grey (my God, this is like a few steps back..) > water-sand again > spray black > trying to do graphic by sticking masking tape

8. Graphics by masking tape? FAIL!! TT.TT *bang head*

9. Then I don't care and just think of something to cover it.. Which is to print an extremely large speaker to cover it! This is why the speaker looks so weird.. x) Taadaa!!!! xD

10. As I scared that my lecturer might 'hurt' my MP3 mock-up.. This is what I did.. I did packaging for it!! xP (I heard that the other lecturers were laughing when they saw my lecturer carrying my package of MP3.. Then one of the lecturer answered that I treasured it so much because it is my first ever mock-up)

Industrial Design!!

Getting happier nowadays.. It might be because I'm very busy with assignments (doing mock-ups), that is why I got no time to think so much.. I'm currently very simple minded! Clear in the head and won't think too far for this while.. I think this is good because I won't be emo-ing for some time! Good news for those around me! Yay! *claps*

Well, nowadays have to go to the workshop (basement of college) to do mock-ups a.k.a. models.. There is noisy, dusty and hot!! The first time when I did my work, the dust went into my eyes then I suffered for the whole day, holy shit! XD (mind my words, just expressing freely~)

After that, well, I am not dumb.. I learnt my lesson, ok?! I wore goggles ever since and I look like a maniac/weirdo wearing it because there is no one wearing it in the workshop except me! This makes me well recognizable! Actually, the dust irritate my nose as well.. I feel like wearing a mask for health purpose but then, wearing goggles alone makes me a weirdo, so what do you think if I add 1 more mask on my face? It will be extremely weird and people will laugh at me! Argh! I don't want!

So, currently, I'm working on a hairdryer's model as well as a MP3's model.. The MP3 is nearly done but the hairdryer has still a long way to go~~~~~~~~ lalala~~~~ *whistling and staring at the sky to infinity*

Here is the MP3 from the very rough to the very smooth stage but still not done yet.. Will upload the final when it is done.. It should be next week..

1. 1st and 2nd layer of putty

2. After 3rd and 4th layer (sanding in between each layer)

3. Spray white paint, sand again, then found out that should spray grey(not white! !@#$%^&)*&%^^%%$$#@%^%&*)

4. After mistake, sand with water, then spray the correct paint! (finally!) then still not done yet, need to water-sand again until there are no scratches or holes! *take a deep breath*

Here is the hairdryer that is still very raw..... *sigh*

1. After the first step which is cutting out the foam

2. After 1st layer of putty

啦啦啦~

我不是你的玩偶，你不要以为我可以让你轻易摆布！！

别把别人对你的好当成是理所当然！！！

我为你付出我的时间，你以为我吃饱没事做啊？！良心当狗吠！！

我已经不求回报了，你还想怎样？！

做错一点点事情，你需不需要伤我伤到这样深？！

难道你是人，你孩子是人，我就不是人？我也是有爸爸妈妈生的！！

你以为每个人天生一生出来就会走，就会跑啊？

他们还不是需要时间去慢慢学习吗？难道我就不用？

你以为我是神童？一生出来就是什么都会做？

你从来就没有教过我要怎样做，所以我到处询问，因为我知道什么东西都需要靠自己的努力，

毕竟天底下是没有白吃的午餐..

我靠自己慢慢地累积经验，任何事都不耻下问，再加一点自己从中领悟到的事情，把它们统统给加起来，然后变成一个我自己的方程式..

而你呢，一开始就认定了我这样做是错的，觉得你的方法就一定是对的！

你也何尝不是从自己的经验累积成一套你自己的方程式，为什么你的方程式就一定是对的，而我的就一定是错的？！

就算我错了又如何，我没有想赖帐说我的就一定是对的！我又不是你！我才没那么霸道！

问题是你没有纠正我，你直接侮辱我！！

如果我做错了，我心甘情愿听你的教导，但你没有..

你并没有给我机会，你没有教导过我，督促过我，你完全没有给过我任何的启示，你就直接明示我没用！

明示我教导无方！明示我是一个没用的老师！那你想我怎样？！

才教了那么的半载，你就想我可以完成那一大事业？！你以为我是神仙？一生出来就很厉害？

难道我就不可以犯错？难道我不是人？

在家里已经不容许我犯任何的错了，难道在别的地方我也一样不可以犯任何的错误，不可以有任何的瑕疵？

毕竟我也是人！！我也有失措的地方！！

难道就那么的一点点小错误，你就要置我于死地？！

难道你的面子大过天，别人的性命就是你脚底下踩的屎？？！！！

你让我渐渐地越来越讨厌去那个地方，每到那个时候，我就会很害怕，很害怕..

真的，如果可以的话，我想这一辈子都不想再去了，何必让自己那么的痛苦，受尽种种的委屈呢？

当下我最想跟你说的就是“我不干了！”

但是.. 我很矛盾.. 因为我的良心跟我说‘做人要饮水思源’..

毕竟你以前对我有恩.. 人家说‘一日为师，终身为父’..

我会继续忍气吞声，但愿你可以自我反省，不要以为你做的事就一定是对的，别人做的就一定是错的..

Grrrr...

最近一切都不顺心.. 很不爽啊!! 然后又得假装到很开心.. 咳..

Paint!! XD

Now its after 12a.m. Therefore it should be considered yesterday that I went to paint my old house with my mum and dad.. My noob skill of painting got me the paint all over my body and even my shirt was dirty.. XD
Since I did not know how to paint, I use my water colour skill to do it and those stains on my body clearly prove that I was wrong..
Here are those photos that I had taken after I finish painting the house:

Had I Changed?

Today I went to college.. Erm.. My attire was a little bit different from what I used to wear, a little bit girlish than before.. Maybe myself don't really feel that there were any difference but somehow, my friends realise it more than I do..

My friends realise that I had become more girlish and they are happy for me.. Haha.. I was a little bit scared that they might tease me or something but they were happy for me!! Thanks, mate!!

During Photography class, another friend saw me sitting nearby him and he suddenly said that my hair had grew longer.. Then when we were in the dark room processing our photos, he told me again that I had changed a lot.. As in I no longer talking loudly (in scolding tone) and I had gotten more decent.. =='' Was I that scary before this? XD

Then when I went to the washroom, I met three of my friends which are now in the Fashion Design department.. I was staring at them but somehow they couldn't recognize me.. Until one of them look clearly at me then she realised it was me and then she said I looked very different and they couldn't recognize me at the first place.. Did I really changed that much?

等待.. 也是一种幸福.. ^^

今天早上才刚从我朋友的部落格上看到一个故事..就在同样的一天，那故事也发生在我身上了..当然，故事总有些情节有了一点改变..以下的故事摘自于我朋友的部落格：

有一對情侶，相約下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因為公司會議而延誤了，

當她冒著雨趕到的時候已經遲到了30多分鐘，他的男朋友很不高興的說：
「妳每次都這樣，現在我甚麼心情也沒了，我以後再也不會等妳了！」
剎那間，女孩終於決堤崩潰，她心裡想：或許，他們再也沒有未來了！

同樣的在同一個地點，另一對情侶也面臨同樣的處境；
女孩趕到的時候也遲到了半個鐘頭，
他的男朋友說：「我想妳一定忙壞了吧！」
接著他為女孩拭去臉上的雨水，並且脫去外套蓋在女孩身上，
此刻，女孩流淚了！但是流過她臉頰的淚卻是溫馨的。

当然，我的故事只是类似相同罢了，没有一模一样啦，不过也是一样环绕在‘等待’二字..

把相约用餐改成相约搭巴士回巴生；把公司会议改成上课然后老师不放人；把冒着雨改成从五楼跑下来；把迟到30分钟改成迟到45分钟；把男朋友不高兴改成不理不睬.. 嗯.. 我的故事就类似这样啦.. 只是，我比故事里的女主角好很多..至少我男朋友没骂我，只是心情有点不好罢了，换成是我，我应该也是会那样..

要你等我，我也过意不去，叫你先回先，你又不肯..我上课又不能陪你，然后电话又没有放在身边..我错就错在没有拿着电话..当时，我们必须进另一间房间洗照片..老师要我们把门锁起来，然后把所有的灯关上因为那影片一旦普了光就没有影像了..哎呀，我就忘了把电话带进来，留在隔壁教室..

当我一放学，我就直接冲下去楼下了..找到你时，你就不大爱理我，我很伤心..我在班的时候心里想的全是你..结果..

回到家过后，你还是一样那个累累的样子，我看了很心疼..不懂要怎么办才好，很无助..

过后看到你心情好一点了，我也开心了..

今天的事后，我很怕以后如果我们每天都见面，你会看我看到闷..这会是我最不希望会发生的..记得以前你问过我，为什么只要我们连续几天都见面我会好像不是很喜欢..就是因为我怕你每天都见到我，日子久了你会觉得厌恶..我很不希望会有那么的一天哦..

Weee~ Free MP4

Yesterday after I came back from Sg. Wang, a lady came standing at my gate staring at me and I stared at her back.. Couldn't regconize who is that, I asked my mum to go and check out.. My mum asked the lady who was she looking for and then she said 'Jia Nee'.. Oh, that's my name but what she want from me? I don't even know her.. XD

I went out and told her that I was the one that she was looking for and I stared at her curiously, again.. Then, she took something out and gave it to me and told me that Mr. Lau (or however you spelled it) was not free and could not deliver it to me personally.. At that time, everything was clear to me and I knew it straight on the spot that the item in my hand was a MP4!! As she mentioned Mr. Lau, right at that time, 'Delta' just clicked in my head.. Basically, that lady was from Delta and she was delivering the MP4 to me on Mr. Lau's behalf.. After all, I did not went for the prize giving ceremony because I was accompanying someone to study and that someone is of course, more important than the MP4 and that was why I did not went for the event.. And, I thought by not presenting myself to the event, I would not get the prize.. But who knows, they actually deliver it right to my door step.. XD But however, I deserved it..

Why do I say so? If you live in Klang, I think you would understand.. You will be seeing my face all around the places.. At the road sides.. Mostly near schools.. Okay, I will try to make it clear to you.. I'm not 'Wanted' nor did I a superstar in Klang or what-so-ever.. It's just that I had went to this tuition centre named 'Delta' when I was form 5 and mind you, I only went for Chemistry (1 subject only) but somehow, after I got my SPM result.. The tuition centre kinda use my name as one of the people to advertise their tuition centre, as if all my 12As was because of them.. I repeat, I only had tuitioned 1 subject there and they put me as one of the heads on the banner of their tuition centre and it was(is) written '12As LIM JIA NEE MGS' under my dark and yellowish head.. sob.. so embarassing.. I hate that photo.. That can be one of the worst photo that I had taken in my whole life and it is out in publicity!! Argh!! This is why I say I deserve the MP4!!

Back to the topic.. If you wanna know which of the heads is me.. I can tell you.. Because it is like, more than 10 heads on the banners and you wont have time to browse through everyone's face by driving passed the banner (not to mention that you are driving and you should concentrate on the road).. If it is the banner with light blue as the background, my head is the 3rd one couting from the centre towards the right.. it is like about 16 heads on the banner.. so it should be this way: (underscroll= 1 head; X= my head)

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (Delta's logo) _ _ X _ _ _ _ _

While for the other one which is dark purple as the background, my head is the 3rd one counting from the right.. it should be this way:

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ (Delta's logo) _ _ _ _ _ X _ _

Good luck in searching my head!! (Hints: you will see the banners at some cross junctions in Bayu Perdana and Chi Liung area; when you are on your way from KL to Klang's bus station, the banner is near Hospital Bukit Kuda; when you are near Klang's bus station; and most of all, near the main gate on the fence of most schools in Klang)

Good Luck in searching while I am listening to my MP4!! ^^

心情怪怪的一天

今天早上，当我正熟睡着时，突然我朋友打电话来.. 'Hello, Jia Nee? Today got school ar?'她问..哈哈，好可爱的朋友哦，我明明那天跟她说清楚这个礼拜没有课了..结果害我从熟睡中惊醒..

十二点半时，妈妈敲我房间门，我才发觉我睡到那么迟..嘻嘻.. 吃了早餐后，不对，是午餐..吃了午餐后，我就照往常般地上‘面子书’..突然间，我妈妈杀进来我房间，把我给念了一顿..说我得空不帮她打扫，一有时间就拍拖..当时，我是不爽到~什么一有时间就拍拖？我昨天明明用了整天来陪她，都没有跟男朋友报道我的所在处..她还想怎样？过后，我心不甘，情不愿地爬起来帮她扫和抹整间房子，还在‘面子书’上留言..我朋友看了是一头雾水，都不明白我在讲什么..我用了才一小时的时间就把整间房子给打扫干净了，真不明白，她每次说我姑姑打扫房子总爱把事情闹到大大，原来她也是半斤八两罢了..而且她叫我打扫房子的目的只有一个，就是把我从我的房间给挖出来，然后她要向我倾诉她在林家所受的委屈之类的..她不喜欢进来我房间倾诉，因为她知道我一定会对着电脑，然后不会专心听她倾诉，把她说的话当作耳边风..

我打扫完后，又回到电脑前面..过那么的几分钟，她又跑进来我的房间叫我帮她拔眉毛.. 那时的心情很不好，刚好在这个时候又是我荷尔蒙失调的时候..咳..现在想想那时还真小气..果然是荷尔蒙失调..

今天抹地的拖把很不好用，弄到我的手都受伤了..而且因为我抹地的时候心情不好，所以抹到很大力，所以手受到那么重伤..现在手粗粗了，呜呜呜~

Taekwondo's Grading

Last Sunday was the first Taekwondo's grading for this year and it was so so so tiring..

At 8.30a.m. in the morning, we had a training in Bukit Tinggi's Taekwondo Centre before we proceed to Pandamaran B for the grading which start at 1p.m. but we need to be there at 12p.m. to revise those that are going for grading later..
As the grading start, as usual, we bowed to our grand master and then we had belt giving ceremony and I was the photographer taking photos very not professionally.. This was because I had got so used to taking photos with my DSLR camera a.k.a my 'bao bei', I was so not used to the compact/digital camera that my sir lend to me.. can you imagine I was trying to find a hole to look through to focus on the photos that I had to take (we need to do this with DSLR camera but not with digital camera because digital camera has everything on the LCD screen!!).. OMG!! can you imagine how silly did I looked like?

After the ceremony and all, there goes the grading.. It was white belt first and my sir asked me whether I would be able to conduct and I told him that I was scared that I might do mistakes.. I thought he had given up and I was so relieved.. But who knows, he suddenly asked me to conduct back.. Argh!! I was freaked out and I did not have a reason at all to reject him.. T.T And there goes me, standing in front there like an idiot and I was so nervous and I had forgotten to bow to the examiner.. it was so embarassing.. the white belt went on for not too long and I did stuck here and there but I did managed to finish it off, thank God!! But however, I did got some advise that my conduct was not very good but what's more that I can expect? It was my first time! But I guarantee I will be much better the next time if I need to conduct again..

The grading went on further after that.. I was standing in front there helping out those instructors because some of the other black belts had gone to only God knows where they had went.. By standing from 12p.m. to 4p.m. ++, my legs (especially the calf part) had gone to numbness and finally I had got to rest when it was the turn of an instructor that do not like the black belts to help him out and I would not want to be an idiot again to help him and therefore, I grabbed that chance to rest my legs and chill (by eating Yu Yu Ice~)

After the grading, we took some photos with our grand master and we took our family photos.. ^^ although it was without the presence of my 'mui mui' and with the presence of 3 'kelefehs' but it was still a good memory~

Finally I can blog in English again after blogging 2 Chinese blogs.. Why do I blog in Chinese is because there are some words that I think I can express them better in Chinese which are those emo ones.. While when I blog in English, they are more on diary's basis..

Let's start off with my day.. Today we are having photography lesson in college where finally we can have all our friends into one class again which all of us miss it very much.. It was me and Arpana at the balcony talking about.. (I forgot..) Then, Melissa appeared at the staircase screaming as she saw us.. haha!! And I was having my same old expression on my face which is the stunned look, the sarcastic-look.. hehe, sorry, Mel.. Then, I took of my jacket because it was seriously hot at that time then Mel came hugging me from behind which afterthat, I gave her a frightened look, as if she molested me or something.. XD She gave me my Christmas present (post-Christmas present, to be accurate) and then I gave her a keychain which I bought during my Hatyai trip..

Then, we started our class.. The photography room was as stinky as usual but this time, we got to use the dark room as well.. Yes, you did not see wrong, it is 'Dark Room'.. The name 'Dark Room' clearly mean that we are working in a room which is in total darkness, doesn't it? I repeat, TOTAL D-A-R-K-N-E-S-S.. which got no light at all.. After we pose for our photos, then it was the time that we should enter the dark room to process the film.. After we switched off the light, it was so scary in there.. The atmosphere of it was as if that we were in a trapped lift.. Argh, so scary! Then, some of my classmates were laughing cunningly, trying to scare us off.. Then, our lecturer said 'so now you know how does a blind man feel like..' Yes, I totally agree with him.. It was really dark.. Can't see a thing.. Although I sleep with my light off, but the feeling in the dark room was not the same.. Atleast when I was in my room at night, with the lights off, I was with my bed, pillows and blanket.. And there are actually lamp posts near my house so it is not as dark as it was in the dark room.. I was scared and do not wish that I will be trapped in a lift..

Argh.. *wiping off the experience in the dark room*

After class, we went for lunch.. Yay!! finally we can chat again!! We talked about our holidays which mine was the dullest so I did not talk much, for the first time.. XD and then, we unwrapped the post-Christmas present that Mel gave to us.. Mine was a white jacket and I thought I couldn't fit into it but luckily, I was not that BIG.. So I fit in nicely.. hehe.. And thanks Mel alot for the present ya!! I like it and I appreciate it!!

X 的！

最近不知道为什么，好像都会为了一点小事情和你吵架..好不喜欢吵架过后的感觉哦~怪怪的..
不知道是我荷尔蒙又失调了还是什么，可能是我敏感过头吧，好像都会因为小事情而不爽对方..现在想起，也不过只是很小的事罢了..

不知从何时开始，我已经不再是自己的拥有者了..好像变了XXX的林佳霓.. 我可以是朋友的，妈妈的，男朋友的，等等.. 但，已经不再是自己的了..

为什么我会这样说呢？因为最近我已经不能再操控自己的时间表了，不由得我自己决定我该在什么时候做什么东西..如果我在做我的东西一半，就会突然被人家叫去做别的东西的..要不然就是我已经决定要在X天做X的东西时，突然间被朋友约出去..如果我说我不得空，朋友又八卦，一定会问我原因，如果我在X天只是纯粹要在家里休息，那我朋友就会把它归类成‘得空’然后就会说我得空又不要陪他们，不够义气之类的..问题是有谁规定得空就一定要出去的叻？难不成我就不是人吗？不用休息的哦？打个比方说，如果我已经忙了连续一个星期，然后难得有一天是得空的，我当然要休息啊..然后X朋友就会问我几时得空，难道要我说谎咩，就会说隔天得空咯..然后X朋友就会约我出来，如果我不想出来啊，问题就大咯..什么‘有异性没人性’啊，‘没有义气’啊，之类的话都会跑出来咯..结果叻，我只好牺牲我那难得空下来的时间陪朋友咯..过后，我不够休息了，不够精神了，就会脾气不好咯，然后就会很小气，就会很敏感，就会为了一点小事而不高兴，就会常常和人家吵架咯..头脑不灵活了，哪里还会有可能说好话哦？就会为了小事如果别人不迁就我而发脾气..结果叻？大伤和气，又被归类为小气鬼，无理取闹，刁蛮任性，等等..为的就是‘义气’二字..

我也是人，我也有感受..我现在做每件事都需要顾虑各方面人的感受..当一件事牵扯到很多人时，我就需要很小心..如果我挺A, B就会说我不公平..如果挺B, A就会和我翻脸.. 然后有时又会突然杀出一个程咬金，C.. C更惨，直接用威胁的话，伤感的话来重击我.. 最后，我输了，彻底地输了，我投降了啦.. 我只有的在自己的部落格上发泄..就连现在所发泄的东西也怕给A, B 和C 看到.. 我都不懂该怎么办才好，看到就看到咯，你出招，我接招咯..

如果有一天可以让我完全不需要顾及别人的感受，随心所欲，那该有多好啊！不过也只会在我梦里出现罢了.. 该发生的事都发生了，再也没有可能再回到从前，我也就只好接受了，慢慢适应吧！

爱，很难..

爱一个人，想念一个人，不一定要常把它挂在嘴边—这就是我对爱的定义..

可能是这个原因吧，让我身边的人都感觉不到我对他们的爱.. 但，这并不代表我不爱我身边的人啊..只是，我选择了另外一种方式来爱罢了嘛..

因为我觉得一直把爱挂在嘴边反而只会把爱的价值给贬低了..我的意思不是说完全不可以说‘我爱你’，只是在适当的场合或气氛之下说会凸显出它的意义..而且，我也觉得如果光是会一直说‘爱，爱，爱’但行动上却没有什么表示，那身边的人反而会觉得你是在说谎..就因为如此，我选择了以行动证明一切..但又可能是因为我的行动不够明显，所以人家又还是一样感觉不到..我都不懂该怎么办才好..常常把爱挂在嘴边又不是我的作风，做出来还是一样不够明显，人家还是一样感觉不到..好矛盾哦！

那我也只好希望身边的人能够了解我这个不会表达的傻瓜吧！

College Reopen!! T.T

All of us thought we are supposed to have our college reopen next week but we got a shocking news that our college actually reopen today and some of us even have class on yesterday!! OMG.. I was just lucky because yesterday's class, Basic Illustration was meant for Graphic Design and Multimedia Design students.. But, however, today's class is for Industrial Design and Interior Design students and that was why I went to college today with my 'holiday mood'.. T.T

Me and Arpana was sitting in the classroom with some other classmates which are not in Industrial Design for more than an hour then the other classmates got frustrated and went off leaving only me and Arpana in the class.. In the end, the lecturer reach around 11am and then he explained something regarding Industrial Design and then our class end at around 12pm.. That means I went to college just for the 1 hour thing.. Sigh..